I haven't "announced" it via this blog yet, but I have announced it locally and on facebook....
My eggo is preggo!
It came as a surprise, but a beautiful blessing that we know is God's perfect timing. (I'd always said that if God wanted me to have another baby, I'd probably have to 'get pregnant on the pill' because we would never pinpoint the "right time"....I was right!)
I found out very early - barely 5 weeks. I purchased a test at Super S (our hometown grocery store, yeehaw), and found myself laughing as I picked out the only test they had: Western Family brand. For some reason it struck me as so funny.
I hadn't told anyone...Amber (my bestie) knew that I was suspecting, but thought it was just body changes due to my diet and weight loss (I was in rehearsals for "Little Shop" and trying to drop the lbs before opening night!). Jared knew that I was someone wondering, but again, thought it was due to stress, busy schedule and diet changes. After about 5 days of wondering, I trekked to Super S while the boys were at a friends house. I was cracking up when I left (thanks to the Western Family brand) so I texted Amber...she was cracking up and asked if I went barefoot, too? Anyhoo - it was funny.
I got to my house and was super nervous to take it! But, had to bite the bullet because I knew I wanted to do it while I was home alone (privacy in the bathroom disappeared when Hudson started walking at 10 months). I headed to the bathroom.
And ooooh, was it ever positive. The instructions said it could take up to three minutes for the test to process if it was positive.
My test was processed before I got it to the counter.
And it was a big, fat, PLUS sign. There was no question AT. ALL.
To say I was shocked would be an understatement. While I had suspected, I still was very surprised. I came out of the bathroom, sat on the couch, and send a text (I know, I know, I know) to Jared that read: "Drink up, we're having a baby!"
He said he already knew.
Shortly after I let Amber, my mom and my sister know the big news. We decided that that would be it for a while, since it was so early. I called my doctor and asked them if they would please do a blood test to confirm, since I was on the pill. I went in a few days later. My blood test results came back with very high numbers. So high, in fact, that they wanted to see me for an ultrasound to make sure that everything was okay and to confirm the due date. At this point, I still hadn't told anyone else. My appointment was scheduled for a Tuesday afternoon. On the preceding Monday, I started having some bleeding. It was not light, but also not heavy. I called the dr. and notified them - and, of course, they said to take it easy and they would see me tomorrow. I canceled my classes for the afternoon and took it easy for the rest of the day/night. I did tell the usual suspects, and just waited. I was nervous, so I asked Amber to go with me. I was a bundle of nerves all morning, wondering what the ultrasound was going to show - or not show.
On my way to meet Amber, I had the radio turned to Spirit 105.9 (our Christian station). When I was pregnant with Hudson I sang a certain song every day - "Word of God Speak". I hadn't sung that song, or even heard it in a while (I lost my Kristin Chenowith CD)...anyway...I was praying as I was driving to Amber's - that God just lay His hand on the baby - that no matter what happened, that I would have peace and know that it was His will and we would be fine. As I was praying, "Word of God Speak" started playing.
And I started crying.
I pulled myself together and knew that no matter what the outcome was, I would be okay.
Amber and I got to the doctor, and luckily, they wasted no time and got the ultrasound started. We immediately saw the little bean. And then, we even heard a heartbeat. It was amazing. I was still in shock, but also so happy...and now nervous. We had a baby growing...but still several weeks to go before I felt like we were "safe". I was not ready to embrace it. Because I was scared.
In the past year, too many people I know have experienced a loss of child. In fact, it was one of the reasons that I got back on the pill. Because I was not ready, and not brave enough, to deal with it. I wanted to protect myself, and count my blessings (I have a beautiful, healthy boy already - I am too blessed!!), and not "take a chance"...Because I was scared.
I was still not ready to share with anyone else. I was in rehearsals for the show - and needed to focus on life and the show. I needed to try to not worry. Let go and let God, right?
I went back to the doctor a couple of weeks later, to make sure all was still okay after the bleeding, and I got to see the Little One again. This time we could make out arms and legs. Hudson was there and got to see and it was pretty awesome. I was still scared, but realized that I couldn't be scared forever. If something was going to happen to my baby, it was going to happen. It could happen at 8 weeks, 11 weeks, 22 weeks, or even 37 weeks. I couldn't be afraid forever. I needed to celebrate this child.
We officially announced it to Jared's family and our friends at Hudson's 5th birthday party. It was a great day, very exciting, and I went off to do my 3rd show of the weekend...I loved playing Audrey 8 weeks pregnant. I can't wait to share that detail....that 'we' got fed to a plant 10 times...with this little one!
I had another check up 4 weeks later - and got to see the Little One again (I'm soo blessed!). This time, it was incredible. Dr. Rush switched the machine over to 3D and I was able to see the baby's arms, legs, and little face. I could see fingers, and feet - arms and legs. It was amazing. We had our 1st Trimester screen a couple of days later, and are thrilled that everything measured, looked, and tested totally normal. Our Little One is growing and healthy.
My official due date is May 23, 2012, but I have measured a week ahead (6 days) at each appointment, and will have a scheduled C-Section a week ahead, so sometime around the 15th of May, we'll have the newest little Hunter in our midst. Hudson is SUPER excited...he pretty much wants a brother, but we've talked about it and he would be okay with a sister too. In fact, when I asked him what he thought about it all - his initial reaction was that he would like it....as long as it was cute. :) Silly bear.
Anyway - this is a LONG post, but I haven't journaled any of this yet, and I wanted to. Maybe that was part of my being scared? I am now 14 weeks and really starting to feel this pregnancy. I can't wait to start showing and really FEEL/LOOK pregnant (right now I just feel flab-tastic)...I had some yucky feeling weeks in there, but overall, can't complain. I am blessed and my son and husband are both being amazing.
Of course now is the hard part: Choosing a name.
So that is where YOU come in....I'm takin' names. Suggestions, that is. Please comment and post your top three boy and girl names! Our "official" gender u/s isn't until January 5th, but we're going to sneak in and get an extra at one of those places before Christmas. As with Hudson, I want to try to choose the name the minute we find out! So...give me your suggestions! I'd love to hear!